442: i’m a sinner
god i’m a sinner.
is feels so good sometimes.
and at times i want to end everything.
the balancing of getting raped by the Divine
and raping the Divine is quite hard to come by.
so fuck it.
714: ego, and yet if she truly came
the energy running through me feels meaningless without conduction.
it’s leaking out forever and always like
cats wet with bath water
struggling to jump the ledge and
go back to the warmth of the window sill.
and she says to simply stop making her wet!
to which i replied that
it would not be the first time
and it could never be the last.
3.22: it hit me super hard
well i have no money now
but i have everything.
everything i need at least
not everything i want.
i’ma go off into that corner now.
lay some traps.
get better at waiting.
get better at not waiting at all.
i spoke to that bartender like she was a student.
and made it seem like I needed schooling.
isn’t life funny sometimes?
isn’t life amazing sometimes?
hold on I gotta get swagged up for this revolution.
hold on i gotta get swagged up for this revolution.
631; you are in here i swear dear..
and i will put this under my pillow if i want !
i’m sorry but that’s how I speak my mandarin.
but i wish you and i got to trick or treat cause i swear
i would love you forever with that black
and holding you forever and only wanting sleep after –
whatever is meant to happen
might never will
so fuck worrying just come get me
i want your pumpkin soup.
that’s my fantasy dear.
that’s my dream to fear
that all you do is get to sit
when we were meant to go to whichever moon
and all starts here i swear dear i swear.